I am glad that the holidays are over. They were a lot of fun, got to see a lot of people and enjoyed our time with family and friends, but I am glad that we can get back into a routine of sorts. Kids crave, desire and need routine. No routine disrupts everything about their little lives and in the process, mine. But we are getting them back on a schedule and moving a long.
I don’t even know where to begin. So much has happened, changed, and is changing. We have begun getting clarity on Ryan’s future in ministry and what that looks like. It’s nice to be able to see an end goal. Although we have no idea on the final outcome, it’s refreshing not to be just floating along per say. We also know that God can change our direction at any moment and we’re excited for that too. Honestly, when He’s done that in the past…amazing things happened. We don’t fear change, we actually embrace it quite well. We know that it gives God a platform to do what He does best.
So much is on the table right now for us. So much is being changed in us and through us. I just had to stop for a moment typing as tears came to my eyes. I am extremely humble for the platform that God has given to us and continues to give us. I am amazed that He’s chosen me…me…to play the role that I have played and continue to play. He took a girl that thought she needed no one, wanted no one, and didn’t need anyone to a woman who knows she needs a Savior, who’s thankful for Ryan and can acknowledge my need for his direction and leadership in my life. God has used Ryan to change my view on God. The way that Ryan loves gave me a glimpse into God’s love. Ive said it a 100 times, but Ryan truly does not have a selfish bone in his body. He just doesn’t. He chooses to obey the scripture and he dies to himself to serve me, serve our kids, and serve Jesus every single day. I thank God every day that I have Ryan. He’s a remarkable man and I wouldn’t be who I am in Christ if it weren’t for him. Marriage has truly taught me about santification and I am so grateful for that process.
In that, I have become extremely passionate about marriage, our roles in society, and about mentoring and accountability. The world feeds us a load of junk. It tells us lies that are not true. And I have seen some very Godly people being caught up in those lies. This is why community and more importantly accountability is so essential for the believer. Without it, we are so vulnerable to the lies that the world sells and the lies that the enemy sells. I could write a whole book on that topic, but I won’t bore you for now.
I will end with this, the prayer that our 18month old prays every night…God is good, God is great. Amen.
